Sorry for not posting for so long, but this last few weeks have been the darkest period in my life, and I don't want to write about it lest it appear in the press, and I don't know what I'd say that would be up for public consumption, or which is anyone elses business anyway. There's so much there, and nowhere to begin, and the only thing I can do is talk to my friends who suffer with this situation as I do, and who understand the bizarre, woeful, grieving and sometimes rage-filled feelings I have.

I will say, however, that I hope I never have to see a child-sized coffin again. Ever.