It's amazing how hindsight is 20/20. It's amazing how life plays tricks on you, how sometimes if you want something bad enough you can invent it even thought it's not really there.
I feel free, now. Like now that I realize what a mistake it's been, I can let go and move on with my life. I can be myself again. I can put one foot in front of the other and get back parts of myself that I've missed like crazy. Hope is a heady thing, especially when there's the glimmer of hope that one of your biggest mistakes can possibly be remedied. Cross your fingers for me, dear reader.
In short, I am single again, in fact if not on paper. Don't be sad for me, be happy. I feel relieved, and I suspect there is much in store for me to be giddy about.